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[boxofdelights]

Definitely feeling better, and fully hydrated.

Popsicles are easier to swallow than water. Chloe's Soft Serve Fruit are very good.

I've been taking an ACE inhibitor + diuretic for 17 years. Every time my doctor didn't like my blood pressure, she'd up the dosage. When she got to the maximum dosage on both components, she decided that I should take that twice a day.

Now, when swallowing was really difficult, I wasn't taking my blood pressure medicine. This was probably part of the problem.

I've always known that in a Lord of the Flies type situation I would be Piggy. Fukken bodies!

I also take potassium, to compensate for the diuretic. This is what the potassium tablet looks like: http://ic.pics.livejournal.com/boxofdelights/833604/59044/59044_900.jpg I am definitely not going to be swallowing one of those any time soon.

I thought Gatorade was supposed to have potassium. Isn't that the whole point of Gatorade?

When I can't sleep but my eyes are too tired to read, I start ruminating. Fifty years of failures and resentments, everything I don't want to think about, all seem to tangle together, like pulling hair out of a shower drain. They might turn into a shame spiral around YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE. YOU DON'T DESERVE LOVE. or one that ends in YOU'RE A VICTIM. YOU DESERVE ALL THE LOVE BUT YOU WILL NEVER GET ANY BECAUSE THE WORLD IS CRUEL. or those might twin together around YOU'RE A LOSER. YOU WILL DIE ALONE. IF YOU'RE LUCKY SOMEONE WILL NOTICE IN TIME TO RESCUE YOUR DOGS.

This is why I hate going to bed if I'm not feeling sleepy.

Comments

[ljgeoff]

*hugs* -- glad you're on the mend. Also, "like pulling hair from a shower drain" made me chuckle darkly in recognition. Thank you for that. :)

Are you Wisconning this year?

[bibliofile]

I dunno, hair from a shower drain is just so finite compared to the actual ruminations, once they get going. OTOH, the messy nastiness is a good parallel, actually.

Ugh, sorry about the fukken bodies thing.

[boxofdelights]

Thank you. Have you ever lived with a bunch of long-haired people? Who don't do the drain-cleaning job themselves, so they have no motivation to keep hair out of the drain, no matter how much you exhort them?

[bibliofile]

Well, I have been a long-haired person. But we always used things to catch hair before it went down the drains.

[boxofdelights]

It is amazing how careful my daughter became about brushing out her hair before stepping into the shower after living independently for a few years!

[boxofdelights]

I am proud of that metaphor!

I will be at Wiscon. I have a room. If you're there, I hope you'll room with me.