sleep schedule

[boxofdelights]

Sleep schedule keeps drifting further out of alignment with the people I live among. I need to do a morning treatment to finish my traineeship at the raptor center, but they start at 7:30 and I can't. I pry myself out of bed, nauseated, at 9, and sit up drinking tea, hoping that not having had enough sleep will make it easier to go to bed the next night.

Having a lot of bad dreams. Like, I'm living with wolves instead of dogs, and my baby has disappeared. He isn't a baby-baby, more like two or three, and there isn't any blood or screaming, but he's gone, and I'm searching, yelling, "Simon! Where are you? Make some noise!" and wondering why I thought it was okay to let these wolves live in my house.

(My baby has in fact gone, but in a good way. And he skyped me for help with physics just before the wolf dream, so I have recent reassurance that he is safe.)


My local art cinema has posted:

The Lyric is very excited to announce that in November we will be hosting our very first Story Swap event. Story Swap is a time to gather together and share life experiences with each other. Each event (which we hope to hold every-other month) we will choose a theme for you to come prepared for. If you bring a story and submit your name to share, you just might be one of the names called! Story sharers will receive a special prize for being open and willing to share.


Our first theme is simple: Good Times, Bad Times. Maybe you have a story of complete joy and hilarity, or maybe your story is about the most difficult period of your life. As long as it is centered on the theme, we want you to bring it! Please make sure your story is under 10 minutes.

I think I should do this.

Comments

[hobbitbabe]

I hope you can do that and I wish I could be there.

[boxofdelights]

I'm pretty sure I'll go! I'm not going to ask anyone to come to support me, though, because they're going to draw names at random and I would feel bad if someone came only to support me and then I didn't get up. I wish I had a local friend who liked storytelling for its own sake, not just for mine! Or a teleporter.

[wordweaverlynn]

I would be there for you.

[sasha_feather]

I think you should do it too!

I wonder if the raptor center can do your training at a different time. I have trouble with mornings too. <3

[boxofdelights]

I think they will, if I ask. I just hate to ask. You know?

The only difference between morning treatments and evening treatments is that the owls get food and treatments and have their cages cleaned in the evenings, and all the other birds (hawks, falcons, and vultures) in the morning. So the evening crew does less bird care and more other stuff, like food prep. So I wish I could get up in the morning!

[malnpudl]

I could have written that first paragraph. Which is to say, boy howdy, do I empathize. And sympathize. It's just wretched, isn't it? And frustrating.

The Story Swap: Yes! Based on that thing you once shared, yes, you have my vote of confidence! And bonus Paul Gross arms with pom-poms. *\o/* See?

[boxofdelights]

Thank you!

It is frustrating. I know that a big part of the problem is the habit of fighting sleepiness that I developed during many years of untreated sleep apnea. I know that it's safe to go to sleep now -- I'm not going to start to suffocate as soon as I start to dream -- but I still can't make myself do it.

[jesse_the_k]

Ach, awful when a life-saving reflex turns against you. Perhaps that's why the dreams take the form they do.

I hope you can grab the story-telling chance with a raptor grip.

[amaebi]

I think that it's fine bold venture, and that anyone who gets to hear your story will be delighted.