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Definitely feeling better, and fully hydrated.

Popsicles are easier to swallow than water. Chloe's Soft Serve Fruit are very good.

I've been taking an ACE inhibitor + diuretic for 17 years. Every time my doctor didn't like my blood pressure, she'd up the dosage. When she got to the maximum dosage on both components, she decided that I should take that twice a day.

Now, when swallowing was really difficult, I wasn't taking my blood pressure medicine. This was probably part of the problem.

I've always known that in a Lord of the Flies type situation I would be Piggy. Fukken bodies!

I also take potassium, to compensate for the diuretic. This is what the potassium tablet looks like: http://ic.pics.livejournal.com/boxofdelights/833604/59044/59044_900.jpg I am definitely not going to be swallowing one of those any time soon.

I thought Gatorade was supposed to have potassium. Isn't that the whole point of Gatorade?

When I can't sleep but my eyes are too tired to read, I start ruminating. Fifty years of failures and resentments, everything I don't want to think about, all seem to tangle together, like pulling hair out of a shower drain. They might turn into a shame spiral around YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE. YOU DON'T DESERVE LOVE. or one that ends in YOU'RE A VICTIM. YOU DESERVE ALL THE LOVE BUT YOU WILL NEVER GET ANY BECAUSE THE WORLD IS CRUEL. or those might twin together around YOU'RE A LOSER. YOU WILL DIE ALONE. IF YOU'RE LUCKY SOMEONE WILL NOTICE IN TIME TO RESCUE YOUR DOGS.

This is why I hate going to bed if I'm not feeling sleepy.

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*hugs* -- glad you're on the mend. Also, "like pulling hair from a shower drain" made me chuckle darkly in recognition. Thank you for that. :)

Are you Wisconning this year?

I dunno, hair from a shower drain is just so finite compared to the actual ruminations, once they get going. OTOH, the messy nastiness is a good parallel, actually.

Ugh, sorry about the fukken bodies thing.

Thank you. Have you ever lived with a bunch of long-haired people? Who don't do the drain-cleaning job themselves, so they have no motivation to keep hair out of the drain, no matter how much you exhort them?

Well, I have been a long-haired person. But we always used things to catch hair before it went down the drains.

It is amazing how careful my daughter became about brushing out her hair before stepping into the shower after living independently for a few years!

I am proud of that metaphor!

I will be at Wiscon. I have a room. If you're there, I hope you'll room with me.