I actually quit keeping a journal, years ago, when I had notebooks dating back to when I was like five or six?? (I would always end the page with a big wooden road sign fingerpost, carefully shaded in, with "BYE!" on it. No idea why) because it just felt like I was telling the story of how my life sucked over and over again. Figuring out a different story, or at least a different method of narrative, sounds....good.